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\"dawn\"<\/a>By Jianna Hoss–Sometimes, a mother\u2019s love is what keeps her children alive.<\/p>\n

Just over a year ago, Dawn Burlage faced every parent\u2019s worst nightmare when her 7-year-old daughter, Grace, passed away. \u00a0For six years, Grace battled meningioma brain tumors, while Dawn battled the thought of losing one of her children. From treating Grace with chemotherapy at home, taking her to countless doctors appointments and surgeries, and going to radiation, along with taking care of her two sons, Austin and Mason, Dawn learned a lot about being a mother.<\/p>\n

At the age of two, Grace had her first surgery to remove a brain tumor. Throughout the years, Grace had other surgeries, one round of at-home chemotherapy, and went to Indiana to have two types of radiation at one time. However, the tumors came back every time.<\/p>\n

\u201cAfter her last surgery, she said, \u2018Mommy, I don\u2019t want any more surgery,\u2019\u201d Dawn recalled of the time right before Grace\u2019s s November birthday two years before she passed away. \u201cAt first they said she had a year, and that if she went to Indiana, she would have two. She ended up having two, \u2018cause we went out to Indiana.\u201d<\/p>\n

While at a care facility in Indiana, Grace received doses of radiation, including proton therapy, which targets a specific location that is needed to dissolve the tumor.<\/p>\n

Despite everything the doctors tried, the tumors came back yet again. The day came when the doctors brought Dawn in and told her the news that they tried everything they could.<\/p>\n

\u201cI asked them, \u2018Are you sure, there\u2019s nothing else?\u2019 And they said there were things they could try, but they never worked, and that they\u2019d mostly be doing that for me,\u201d Dawn said. \u201cI had to make the choice on whether to put her through more treatment and have her sick the whole time, or let her enjoy the rest of her life.\u201d<\/p>\n

No More Treatments<\/strong>
\nThe next couple years were spent on road trips to Duluth with family, to waterparks where Grace laughed like an everyday kid, and days spent cuddling with her mom. Knowing Grace would miss a lot of things, everyone surrounding her tried to give her the best opportunities.<\/p>\n

Two high school girls, Becca Splichal and Anna Skipton, both seniors at the time, developed an amazing bond with Grace after they took her to prom. Grace wore a golden ruffle dress, her hair was curled, and she looked like a princess. It was Grace\u2019s night, and she radiated beauty.<\/p>\n

\u201cOnce the dancing started she hardly left the floor,\u201d Splichal said. \u201cWhen she had to leave, she wouldn\u2019t even acknowledge that her mom had come. It was so cute! Then she cried and Dawn had to carry her to the car, and we told her the whole time out the door how beautiful she was and how glad we were that she came.\u201d<\/p>\n

Both Splichal and Skipton are now freshman in college. Skipton goes to college near home, and still visits Dawn and her boys every week. \u201cI go see Dawn about every Monday night and she is still as strong as ever,\u201d Skipton said.<\/p>\n

Coming together as a family<\/strong>
\nStrength keeps a family together, but so does love. The trying times that the Burlage family faced changed their entire world. For years, they went appointment by appointment, hoping for the best, and taking all of the doctors\u2019 orders.<\/p>\n

Dawn supported her family through the hard times, and listened to all the doctors\u2019 orders. \u201cYou\u2019re told to do something by the doctor, and you do it. You hope and pray for the best even though you never get it,\u201d Dawn said.<\/p>\n

Telling the kids about Grace\u2019s diagnosis was a hard spot. How do you tell your children that they are dying, or that their sister is dying? \u201cThe first thing Gracie did was hug me and say, \u2018Mommy, I don\u2019t wanna die, I don\u2019t wanna leave you.\u2019 And then she was sad about it. Really, really sad. But as time went on, you know, I think she accepted it more, and right before she died, I knew she was okay,\u201d Dawn said quietly. \u201cThat\u2019s when everyone was at the house, and it was just me and her. And she said she\u2019d be holding my hand forever and ever and ever, and that she loved her brothers.\u201d<\/p>\n

On November 12, 2011, Grace passed away at home with her entire family surrounding her. For the people who witnessed her death, the day will never leave their minds.<\/p>\n

Just a few minutes after her passing, Dawn asked for her boys to be by her side. Austin sat beside his sister and mom on the bed, and Mason stood to the side.<\/p>\n

\u201cI love you,\u201d Dawn said to Mason. The ten year old at the time scoffed and rolled his eyes, in a typical Mason fashion. A few chuckles came from the family and friends standing around the room.<\/p>\n

Dawn turned to Austin and said, \u201cI love you,\u201d to which he responded, \u201cI love you too, Mom.\u201d The room laughed as Dawn gave Mason a dirty look.<\/p>\n

After many tears were shed, the pastor said a prayer, followed by many tight hugs.<\/p>\n

Her wake was held six days later on her birthday, followed by the funeral the next day. The rainbow colored assortments of flowers brightened the sad room, but so did the pictures of Grace\u2019s warm, kind smile. Mason and his cousin Aaron played \u201cAmazing Grace\u201d on the guitar with vocals done by friends during the service, which brought tears to many of the people gathered.<\/p>\n

Lives changed<\/strong>
\nJust over a year after her death, Dawn laid on a couch in her brother\u2019s basement on Thanksgiving, wiping the tears from her eyes as she explained the hard times, and laughing a lot while remembering the good times.<\/p>\n

\u201cOur life changed so much. There were doctors\u2019 appointments and Gracie\u2019s spitfireness and her age level and all that stuff going on\u2026 And all of a sudden there\u2019s not of that. The age level of my family went up.\u201d Dawn said.<\/p>\n

\u201cThere\u2019s no girl, there\u2019s no 7-year-old. I have two preteen boys and life just changed completely. I went from having this needy, needy, needy little girl\u2026 then the boys could care less and that\u2019s just their age, I understand that. The most significant part of our lives just went away. There\u2019s so many doctors appointments and stuff to keep up with\u2026 It was just hard, it was really hard,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n

Her two red-headed, pre-teen sons, Mason, now 11, and Austin, almost 13, both deal with the loss in their own ways.<\/p>\n

\u201cMason is less independent emotionally, and he seeks help with things he\u2019s done independently before. He uses humor to lighten the mood around the house,\u201d Dawn\u2019s sister, Deb Carr, says of the eleven-year-old. \u201cI would say his anger comes out as aggression towards his brother.\u201d<\/p>\n

Mason, a sixth grader, is as rambunctious as any 11 -year-old. His red-brown hair, freckle spotted cheeks, blue-green eyes and pink braces make him a unique character.<\/p>\n

Similarly, Austin changed after losing his sister. \u201cHe isolates himself from his family, and he\u2019s much more in his own world. He\u2019s frustrated with others, but he\u2019s super patient with his mom, in almost a protective sense,\u201d Deb said.<\/p>\n

\u201cAll of us just kind of go day by day. Me and Mason read a lot and Austin secludes himself away. Every now and then we talk about her,\u201d Dawn said quietly. \u201cI don\u2019t know what else there is to do to heal. Everyone says time will heal, but that\u2019s not it.\u201d<\/p>\n

A few months after Grace\u2019s death, Dawn and her boys moved to a neighboring town. Moving from the house they had spent the past few years in was hard for Dawn and her boys, because it will filled with images of Grace: her loud laughter, her soft footsteps, and ultimately, memories of the day her life ended.<\/p>\n

Life after life<\/strong>
\nWalking in the new house, you would not see that it is not a home. It has pictures of Dawn\u2019s three kids, a very occupied living room, and a television with Spongebob Squarepants on. It appears to be a home, but it is not without Grace\u2019s presence.<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s not hard to remember her, but it\u2019s harder to find the sense of home without her,\u201d Dawn said about the move. \u201cIt was like, she was there and she was everywhere and then she died, and that was home. The boys and I moved to a different house, and that can\u2019t be home, because we were never a full family there.\u201d<\/p>\n

The house has evidence of a family, but what you can\u2019t see is that it is not fully intact. The pictures that hang on the walls and sit on shelves capture the meaning of the Burlage family- smiles, laughter, love, and most of all, strength.<\/p>\n

\u201cShe was a wild child in high school and now she\u2019s not so much,\u201d Dawn\u2019s brother, Dwayne Hoss explains. \u201cShe got a degree, had a family, and then had a huge event in her life with Grace. She\u2019s grown a lot from that.\u201d<\/p>\n

The quirkiness of Dawn\u2019s family is evident, especially in her boys–loud laughs, red-brown hair, and sly jokes to make hard situations lighter make up their personalities. It was the same for Grace, family members recall. Grace, despite her age, had a lot to say and knew exactly how to say it. She taught everyone a lesson, whether they knew it at the time or not\u00a0.<\/p>\n

\u201cGracie taught me to smile through the pain, but I can\u2019t,\u201d Dawn said after a few minutes of thinking. \u201cShe\u2019s stronger than I am, \u2018cause even right after surgeries, she\u2019d be just smilin\u2019 away. Through chemo, she laughed. She didn\u2019t mind it. She didn\u2019t get sick. She\u2019d just smile, happy-go-lucky, and she\u2019d get tired, but even being tired, she\u2019d be happy. Or demanding,\u201d Dawn laughed, smiling at the thought of her daughter.<\/p>\n

\u201cShe was stubborn, happy, and caring. She really wanted to make sure that I was taken care of. She was a little spitfire, but yet, she had a heart of gold. That fiery red hair and blue-green eyes\u2026 She could look at you in a way that you knew she was mad. I can still hear her saying, \u2018Mom!\u2019\u201d Dawn said, laughing yet again.<\/p>\n

However, Grace learned to have a heart of gold from the very best–her mother. Dawn would do anything for her kids, and she loves them unconditionally. A mother\u2019s love is never ending, even when a child is no longer around. \u201cShe was so strong,\u201d Dawn said about her daughter, not realizing how much strength she herself had within her.<\/p>\n

Rollercoaster<\/strong>
\nRemembering Grace is a rollercoaster. The high points bring happiness, and the low points bring sorrow, yet no matter what kind of a day it is, the Burlage family marches on.<\/p>\n

Dawn cares for her boys and it\u2019s evident in everything she does, from working multiple jobs, to showing up at every football game that her boys play.<\/p>\n

\u201cOne of her greatest strengths is her ability to help others by using her own story, but it\u2019s too soon for her to do that with Grace. I think in time she will, and I think she\u2019ll be good at it,\u201d her sister Deb says.<\/p>\n

With Dawn\u2019s strength, determination, and her story, she\u2019s sure to do something with it in time. \u201cI\u2019d love to,\u201d Dawn said about wanting to tell her and Grace\u2019s powerful story. Perhaps one day she\u2019ll become a motivational speaker at conventions, or write a book.<\/p>\n

During the six years of treatment, Dawn learned a lot. Perhaps those lessons will one day be moved on to someone else.<\/p>\n

\u201cThere\u2019s one thing that really sticks out in my mind that I did right, and it wasn\u2019t even something I did to Grace,\u201d Dawn said. \u201cBut I told each of the boys that I was glad it wasn\u2019t them. That I was really, really sad it was it was their sister, but that it wasn\u2019t them at the same time. I didn\u2019t want them to grow up thinking, \u2018Well mom would have preferred it was me.\u2019 No, no I wouldn\u2019t. Make sure that the living kids know that even if you have to go away, that they\u2019re so important to you.\u201d Dawn said with a hint of sadness. \u201cAnd number two, don\u2019t worry about the dishes.\u201d<\/p>\n

There is no saying what is in store for the Burlage family in the next few years, but one thing is for sure: Dawn will continue to be a strong and loving mother, the boys be as comical and animated as ever, and Grace\u2019s spirit will still be everywhere.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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