It\u2019s the incessant needy \u201cBEEEP,\u201d or maybe it\u2019s a song I once really liked, but have now grown a hatred towards. Some days it\u2019s my roommate getting ready to go workout, a bad dream, some times I\u2019m not even sure what it was\u2026 But it\u2019s what wakes me up from my magnificent slumber that really irks me.
\nI set three alarms a night because I\u2019m afraid I\u2019ll sleep through all of them. I end up hitting snooze anywhere from 3 to 10 times a morning. I\u2019ve set alarms for 6:45am, me and my wishful thinking. I\u2019ll then proceed to hit the snooze until 7:45am, maybe even 8am.
\nIt sets the tone to my day.
\nEvery thing being timed.
\nBe on time. Don\u2019t be late. Allow enough time for this or that.
\nTime. Time. Time.
\nI never feel like I have enough to accomplish the things I want to in a day. I end up spreading myself thin, wanting to do so much, and then not allowing myself to do any of those things to the best of my ability. I allow enough \u201ctime\u201d to just get each thing done, but it\u2019s never enough.
\nI want to surpass expectations and be better than \u201cgood enough.\u201d
\nTime is my enemy, but I want more of it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
It\u2019s the incessant needy \u201cBEEEP,\u201d or maybe it\u2019s a song I once really liked, but have now grown a hatred towards. Some days it\u2019s my roommate getting ready to go workout, a bad dream, some times I\u2019m not even sure … Continue reading